Beginnings #2 – Restart

I so appreciate everyone’s wonderful comments.

First off I have to say that I am not Julie Kelly, the investigative reporter who has done so much work on the J6ers. I am just a regular person and I don’t deserve the acknowledgments that rightfully belong to her. So on her behalf I thank you and I wish her well.

My last Substack was basically filler until I could compose myself to venture forward. As you all know I have had a challenging 6 months and the hits keep coming.

I was living with the illusion that the hospitalization in January was a temporary problem and I would go back to where I was before it. Then I went to my pulmonologist’s office for a follow-up. Without any softening of the blow I was informed that I was to use oxygen any time I was moving. I move all the time. I move more than I sit. I am probably just being grumpy but what has happened to compassion and empathy when discussing health changes like this? It was a casual statement without offering a little sorry but your life is completely altered. Then she left the room.

I felt like such a failure. Ever since I healed from my Covid imprisonment I had to use my determination to get moving and to keep moving. My doctor, pulmonologist, told me a couple of years ago that I had amazing willpower. It is God’s willpower but I used that statement to really get moving on. So I walked as much as I could. I believe that if you believe the death sentence you were given you won’t get moving.

That’s what it felt like, a renewal of the death sentence that I had been pushing away, unwilling to accept the delivery of the verdict. I am usually very interested in all the medical stuff but I couldn’t ask how bad I was. I knew if I found out that I would give up. I went on another week of defiance and temper tantrums.

Well now I have another major health setback. There is a very good chance that I have endometrial cancer. The biopsies’ results have come in but I couldn’t connect with the doctor to get the results. I feel that I do have cancer but I have to wait. The waiting has made me angry and now I have to wait two more days.

I was told by God before the biopsies “Fear Not, my child.” While the doctor was doing the biopsies I felt surrounded in a warm cocoon of safety. But now that I am out of that situation I am allowing doubt to creep into my mind. It makes me question my faith. I know that I will not lose my faith but the fears continue.

I know God is always trying to teach me something and that belief is really being put to the test. What can I really say about another possible death sentence? I have to decide how I wish to react to all of this. All the bravado and not letting things get in behind my carefully constructed wall. But I can’t do it anymore. I am just a raw nerve.

Well back on track.

It was my ego that got in my way.

I have been asking people to read my Substack and yet no one does. I find myself talking to people and helping them and I direct them to my Substack where I hope that they may get some encouragement, something to think about.

One of the comments I received, it may have been to the other Julie Kelly, but I wrote out an answer. As he put this in my comments section it is already out in the public domain I am going to use it. The question and my answer is below. I hope that I made myself a good teacher.

Question

I'm writing this out of respect for your work. This god, who apparently could part waters, murder Egyptians, cure the blind and commit numerous genocides can't help you?

This god who apparently turned President Trump's head and eight of an inch couldn't be bothered with the Christian firefighter behind him?

This god who can see all and allows his followers to traffic children for sex and young people for prostitution while his connect on Earth a fat politician in a frock has ato be artifici…

My Answer

I will be completely honest with you. We as human beings rarely make changes when things are good, it takes the negative events to make us change. We have to be removed/pushed from our comfort zone to achieve growth.

I try to see the reasons behind actions, including God’s actions, although I will never know if I am right. We as humans do not understand the whys always but we are all born for a purpose. Perhaps Corey showed a heartless world that there are still people who will make the ultimate sacrifice. He showed the world the exact purpose of Jesus Christ. He gave His life so we who believe in Him could live. Corey’s life is a testament to the love of Christ. What more beautiful thing than this gift is there?

I was saddened by his death and the pain his family went through and is still going through. Nevertheless he made an honorable sacrifice. There is a lot of good that will come from his death, whether we know about it or not. I have not checked recently but I believe his family is using the money that was donated to them for good causes. Would they have done that if he wasn’t killed? Perhaps as good Christians they would have done something small within their church but now their influence can reach across the U.S. and possibly even the world.

Just to be clear it is not Christians who are trafficking children, it is evil people who have not been stopped by the rest of the world. There is a saying “all that is necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing”. Not sure it is the exact phrase but it is close. As a firefighter Corey rushed toward danger to save lives and his final act was a similar sacrifice. His choice, he could have dodged the bullet and let his wife or daughter die but his faith and honor required him to sacrifice himself. God did not command him to do anything. God gives us freedom of choice and it is up to us to make the right choice(s). We are all responsible for our actions. God provides the situations and we determine what we will do.

As a prime example of “God’s people” we have Joe Biden and Nancy Pelosi who are Catholics. They have betrayed their faith and God by encouraging people to get abortions. Too many millions of babies have been murdered because no one used protection. Babies are not disposable. Where is the love for all those babies? Where is the outrage about that?

God is about love, as long as you follow His commandments. The reality of the Commandments is that they are good moral codes. The path of a Christian is narrow but worthwhile. So is the Golden Rule. Treat others as you would want to be treated.

In the 70’s to 2000 I was pro-choice. In the 70’s woman were dying from alleyway abortions. When women couldn’t get abortions they would use coat hangers and usually died. Why don’t people just make the choice to not conceive in the first place? God is not telling them to abort babies. I changed my pro-life stance in the 2000’s because abortions became big business. I believe I should have complete autonomy over my body but not to justify the killing of babies, especially at full-term and 30 days thereafter. Especially when the babies could be prevented. Where is the outrage?

It is a fact of life that people die. Without death the world would be a very crowded place indeed. How many Americans were killed by the illegal aliens? Evil was allowed into our country by an evil person, God did not do it. He gave free choice to the person in charge. Where is the outrage?

Research how many Jewish people were killed as slaves to the pharaohs. God did not kill them, the Egyptians did. Throughout the Bible there are instances of God destroying complete kingdoms, down to the sheep and oxen, because their evil was so pervasive. They committed child sacrifice and so had to be wiped out to prevent those sacrifices from occurring again.

When I first read about God commanding the Jewish people to do that I couldn’t understand why a “loving” God would allow the slaughter of hundreds of thousands of people. Then I finally realized that those were evil people that He had to have destroyed. Much like killing every cockroach so they can never breed again.

President Trump was saved so he could fulfill God’s purpose in him. God uses imperfect people to fulfill His works. Now I am not going to list the childhoods of all the evil people in the world, but if you look at President Trump’s morality you will see he is the product of moral parents. He watched his father help a family where the father had died. His father promised that he would pay for the children to go to a private school until they graduated. As a 12 year old how would that affect you?

When I look at people I see their heart, not the outside features. I have looked at President Trump and I have seen his good heart and soul. As far as I know he has never cheated anyone. He worked hard to earn his money. The operative word is “earn”. He has treated all peoples with honor and respect. I challenge all of you to tell me of other people, especially politicians who can say the same thing. Is it nature or is it nurture?

President Trump abhors the violence in this world and he is working to slow it down and to hopefully stop it. Why else is he driven to work so hard? He works hard 6 days a week. He is on a mission from God and he knows that he has 4 years within which to achieve this mission. He protects the weak and the widows as commanded in the Bible. Trust me he knows about the human trafficking and those people will pay. But he is one man and try as he might he cannot do it alone.

I believe that Hillary Clinton is evil but she got one thing right. It takes a village to raise a child. We must all be more vigilant to protect all of these children, not just our own. When I am out in the world I am always watching out for children, even at 69, and I will continue to do so.

Well I guess it is time to get off my high horse and soap box and say good-bye and God Bless You all. We are never alone, God is always with us.

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